Tawana

As a single person (prior to my first marriage) I did have self confidence & acceptance issues with how men viewed me. If a guy was attractive to me, then I felt accepted. I was naive & didn’t think much about “what they were thinking” beyond liking me because they thought I was attractive. I often would want the attention of Christian men (real ones) but most of the attention came from those living in the world. Of course, I did know that my self confidence & acceptance is based on “Christ”. But I still struggled with this. Prior to college, my family life & environment (outside of church), was pretty negative & started the foundation of my self confidence issues. Of course, most of the time, it came as heart break as I would strive to be like Jesus in my morals & dating relationships.

As far as pornography is concerned, certain members of my family had magazines around all the time. As an adult, I had close friends whose marriages broke up due to the husband having an Internet porn addiction and refusing to change. In my first marriage, my ex-husband had a porn addiction, and he cheated on me through meeting someone in an Internet chatroom. I never knew about the cheating until after the divorce.

I decided that I was tired of the devil using this sort of bondage on people.